Not sure if your saved
By stephencrowDo you get convicted when sinning or in other words does it extremely hurt your feelings when you do wrong? Do you see a decreased pattern of sin in your life? Jesus said except a man be born again then he cannot enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. If your born again that doesn’t mean you will be PERFECT but if you REALLY know the Lord then you will have no choice but to fall in love with Him. The bible says we show our love for the Lord by obedience to the commandments. Meaning you should strive to walk in all the ways of the Lord. The only way to be saved to ask for forgiveness from God believing Jesus paid for your sins but the evidence of true faith is a changed life. Matthew 7:21 says Not everyone who says Lord, Lord will enter into Heaven only he who does the will of God. This just means not everyone who talks about God knows God. God is more concerned with our walk than our talk.
If you feel that you may have just been going to church and praying every once in a while but you still feel a million miles away from God then maybe you have just been in religion instead of a relationship with Jesus Christ. BUT if your still breathing there is STILL time you can cry out to Jesus ask for forgiveness and turn from sin and begin to seek Him with everything you got. Get around some people who are serving the Lord wholeheartedly, talk to the Lord throughout the day and make sure to read the bible daily.